Two years ago I woke up in a fog of sadness and dispair and didn't even know it. Two years ago I put myself on autopilot and basically veared all over the road like a drunk driver. I stopped caring about what I looked like, what I wanted out of life, basically I stopped caring about anything at all. I pulled away from friends, I stopped caring about scrapbooking, I didn't do much of anything but just exist from day to day. I went numb. In a nutshell I went all dark and twisty like Meridith on grey's..only I didn't try and drown myself in the bathtub. It's funny that in the midst of all that happening I didn't really KNOW it was even happening. I just kind of started slipping away.
I'm not dwelling on the reasons behind the cloudy disposition,because there are a million reasons and dwelling doesn't fix or change any of them, but instead enjoying the new found sunshine in my life. It wasn't until December when I finally came out of the fog, that I realized just how incredibly sad and pathetic I had let myself become. Interestingly enough..I can see it happening now when I go back and read parts of my blog...or I should say the lack of posts on my blog. I just didn't have anything to say anymore. But I'm pretty sure that's all behind me now. I know this will sound rather alarming to some..like I need a padded room with a pretty white jacket with shiny buckles..lol..but I really am ok. In fact I'm better than ok these days..well, aside from the 50 lbs I put on during this 2 year wallowing time. lol But I'm working on that again too.
Lately I've felt blog posts brewing. Truthfully, it's one of the ways I knew for sure that I was coming back to life again. I feel the need to write and post and be spunky. I've missed the spunky. We have alot of ground to cover that is for sure. Stay tuned..I'm back. :)
Glad you're back friend... although you were never away from me and I'm even "gladder" about that... :)
Love you!
Posted by: kelly | March 28, 2009 at 10:30 PM
I've been worried about you Miley. Good to see you are back! :)
Posted by: Rachel | March 29, 2009 at 02:21 AM
Glad to see you are back. I have always enjoyed your witty words.
Posted by: Trish | March 29, 2009 at 12:57 PM
Oh Miley! I'm so glad you are coming out of a funk. I've missed reading your blog. But I never gave up. I knew you'd come around again! Big, huge, gigantic hugs to you! And if you want an internet buddy to chat about weight loss let me know. I've gained about 40 in the last couple of years myself and I need a good kick in the seat to get started.
Welcome back!
Posted by: Shannon Taylor | March 31, 2009 at 03:14 PM
glad you are back... I have missed you girl!I havent been the best blogger myself facebook and twitter make it too easy not to blog! I am trying to get back into the swing of it. I am looking forward to reading your blog and laughing...don't be surprised if your phone rings! tena
Posted by: tena | April 02, 2009 at 10:15 PM
i totally feel you on this. all of it. glad you are "better"
now blog!
Posted by: CANDI | April 22, 2009 at 11:09 PM
thanks for the honesty Miley!! it's a rare gift!! good to know i'm not the only one who has/is gone/going through this!!
Posted by: abby | October 31, 2009 at 06:13 PM