I'm not even going to address the obvious. Let's just start over shall we? Just pretend I was on a reeeeally long vacation, like when friend Becky went to Washington last month and we were all like, 'um hello, is becky EVER coming home?"
I started this blog a couple of years ago when I was at the height of my scrapbooking obsession. EVERYONE was doing it. It was a window into the lives of the almighty scrap gods, and for the obsessed fan (speaking of myself here, not you the reader..lol) it was like a daily dose of the latest reality show..only not quite as tacky as living lohan or denise richard's new show..not that I would know what those shows are really like mind you..I don't watch them (live anyway, I tivo.)
I was pretty darn committed to the blogging phenominon back in the day. Almost a daily poster. I don't know what changed between now and then..well I do kind of. I got a tad bit shy and paranoid. Somewhere along the way blogs went from being rainbows and sunshine to becoming kinda nasty in the scrapbooking world. One or two turns of being mentioned on THOSE blogs and I was rocking back and forth in a fetal position, ready to eat everything in site. (I freak out=I eat.) So, I crawled under a rock and stopped posting for fear of being eaten alive and getting my feelings hurt. After way to long of an absence, I realized, who am I kidding? Who do I think I am..lol. I said to myself, Self, so what if you get mentioned on the anonymous blogs..until you show up on Perez's blog you ain't got nothin to cry about.
but by then it was just too late.. I was out of the habit of daily blogging and frankly I just got lazy about it all together. I fell out of the routine of checking in, and decided what do I have to say that is relevant any way? No one wants to listen to me go on and on and on about nothing. Been there done that. It was called Seinfeld Miley, and they've all seen it done a million times on reruns by now. So I just stopped talking.
i told the girls last week at dinner(the bagels=kelly becky she who is as bad as me about blogging Becca Holly denise Lisa ) that my plan was to start blogging again and have a REALLY big give away right of the bat..like she does and give away like a trip or something..and how funny it would be because NO one would even know about the give away because who am I kidding, I have no following, and second of all anyone who was bored and used to read this blog stopped oh, FOUR months ago due to the weeds growing up around the edges.
So basically this will now be a home for me to talk to myself..because lord knows no one is actually reading anymore, and if you are well then you have either the patience of a saint to have stuck around, or you lead a really really boring life and should probably come to my house and help me clean.
Speaking of cleaning, remember oh, back in JANUARY when I was going to clean and purge my scrapbook room? Yeah. About that. It's still not done. In fact, it's worse than it was. I haven't done much (any) scrapbooking since like January. It's safe to say I USED to be a scrapbooker. Not so much anymore. I lost that loving feeling. Which led to me leaving the garden at 2peas last month. That was I have to say,a sad sad day for me. A "kick a girl when she's down" moment in my life. While in my head I knew I had no business being a garden girl anymore, as I was not pulling my weight and had nothing creative to offer, my heart was hurting at the thought of not being a part of that group of women anymore, so I held on by my toenails longer than I should have. I think I held on so long because I knew the minute the lights are turned off on you, and your name is taken off the list, you are alone. You spend several years of your life talking and becoming friends with a group of people and BAM! you no longer can chat with them and are thrown back into the general pea population where you have no one familiar. Sounds pretty pathetic doesn't it? Without sounding even more stupid, I just became really dependant on that group of girls..and I don't know if they even realize it. I miss them every morning when I sit down at the computer. They were a constant in my life that I won't be able to replace. I miss them terribly.
So today I start over.(again) By then end of the week I HOPE I will have a new look to this blog. A make over. It needs one. I have things to share. Stories to tell. So let's give it yet another go..and if this time I fail miserably, I will hang up my blogging shoes forever.
Can you tell I am avoiding cleaning my house? I am. There is no other explaination for two posts in one morning. 
